Pure and unadulterated good news. Despite my glum predictions, it doesn’t look like anything is going ‘wrong’ with this miscarriage. Thank anyone who’s listening.
And, hCG dropping as quickly as it is, I could, conceivably (har har har) be ready to start trying again in the next couple of cycles.
For I am a glutton for punishment.
Actually, at this point, limbo is what feels like the punishment.
Whatever flu I had last night seems to have given up the ghost when confronted with the huge doses of OJ & coffee I flooded my system with this morning, for which I am grateful. And I don’t have to go in to the clinic until Monday – for which I am way grateful They’re nice folks, they’ve been very good to me, and I am mortally tired of spending all my early mornings there.
And I’m feeling good. Feeling a hell of a lot better than I did this summer, during the miscarriage-wait. This is easier, this time. Maybe because it’s earlier, but I think mostly because I knew from the beginning that this wasn’t viable. My hopes never got higher than, say, gnat-height.
And, weirdly enough, I’m feeling encouraged that we managed to produce such a strong embryo. Stupid – hey dummy, wrong spot to settle down in! – but strong. So maybe next time…
Have I mentioned the whole “glutton for punishment” aspect of my personality? How about the “Pollyanna on crack” aspect? Yeah, I suspect that’s becoming obvious even without me detailing it.
Feeling cautiously optimistic. And that’s without the DHEA mood-boost. I guess I can start taking that again. I guess I can start thinking about next time again. I guess I can relax for a while.
It seems very strange to say I’m so pleased your beta is down to 92.8, but I am. What a flipping ordeal you’ve been through. I hate IVF, I hate infertility, I hate the unknowing, hand wringing, emotional mind fuck that is everything surrounding your body’s inability to follow simple directions.
There, I feel better. I hope you’re on your way too.
I’m so glad to hear that the hCG is dropping so nicely AND that you’re feeling better. Really, I think that news has made my day!
I think that all of us undergoing fertility treatments are Pollyannas-in-training. For some reason we just cannot give up hope. At times I wonder if it is a good thing, but then you see that it does work out for someone and say to yourself, “well, next time that could be me.”
You have gotten a good, albeit directionally-challenged, embryo this time, so I think that is as good as reason as any for hopefulness.
And I definitely think that a good dose of relaxing is in order. Have the boy pamper you and the pup. Both of your innards have taken quite a beating in the past few weeks.
I’m glad this stupid ordeal is almost over! I’m so sorry you had to go through this. I agree that you had a strong embryo though… and that IS a good sign!
I am glad that you are feeling better – it is all hell but it seems like you have a good outlook.
Yes! Finally some “good” news. Glad to hear that your beta is finally dropping as it should. Glad also to hear that you’re feelinjg better.
Mo
I’m glad you’ve had some good news for a change. Glad you’re feeling better, too. I’m so relieved that you didn’t have to take that shot, so you can cycle again soon.
Happy for some good news in an otherwise crappy situation. Please take care of yourself!