This has gotten so fucking old.
So, I had the MRI. Good news is that my various problems do not include adenomyosis. Thank god for small favors.
Bad news is, there is an unexplained, er, thingy still in my uterus. Despite the heavy period. Despite my doctor’s poking around in there with the HSG catheter trying to “break it up”. Ouch. Didn’t work, either.
So the really bad news is that I’m getting a hysteroscope/D&C. Should have just goddamn well done this two months ago at the beginning of the miscarriage saga. And October’s cycle is a no-go while my poor abused innards heal. And I’ll be on an estrogen to try to prevent scarring. And we’re hoping it’s just a particularly tenacious blood clot, or even the poor dead fetus, and not a bit of cancerous polyp.
Have I mentioned recently how tired I am of this?
On the bright side, my doctor thinks I’m quite the trooper, since I didn’t even wince while he was wrenching my cervix all over the place, trying to get an angle on the whatever-it-is. Quite honestly, my definitions of pain & discomfort have been radically rewritten since July.
I guess I’m looking forward to an end in sight with this bleeding. Looking forward to not being anemic anymore. Not looking forward to another round of anesthesia, or to the bill I’ll be getting for this service. Not looking forward to having to wait another 2 months (best case scenario, which – Hey! -I have to confess that I’m not counting on!) to begin a new IVF cycle. But at least I am pleased that this bleeding isn’t some new chronic condition, and at least I’m pleased that I’m not yet out of the running for another pregnancy – which I would have been with an adenomyosis diagnosis.
Trying to think positive here, but really, I’m just mourning the loss of one more sick day used up in a laboratory. Not to mention the prospect of more cramping & bleeding, because you know what? Pretty much ready to be done with this already.
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