Argh.

No period.  Perhaps the Lupron has just sent my entire system into menopause.  Maybe that’s it!  No more periods for me, ever!  I mean, hell!  I don’t get to enjoy the usual perqs of being a woman of childbearing age – ie: bearing a child – so why shouldn’t I get to enjoy the big [...]

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Still nothin’

Very frustrating, waiting for a period.  I think I need to come to terms with the fact that all this arseing around with my reproductive innards has completely messed up my previously perfect 28-day cycle.  
Which I find annoying.  I loved being able to plan my life 6 months in advance, and not have to [...]

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Happily ever after.

I read this morning that two blogging-friends are still getting bfns at 9dp3dt and my already crumpled-up heart is getting a bit soggier in response.  I know it’s not about what’s fair or what’s deserved.  It’s not about who’s owed anything by the universe, or even about who’d be a fantastic parent.  It’s not about [...]

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Knives and melon-ballers

…were the weapons of choice in my scary-ass nightmares last night.  Really sharp melon-ballers, I should specify, I suppose.  Trust me, it was a nasty dream.  And I kept waking up, assuring myself that no melon-ballers, sharp or otherwise, were anywhere near me, and then I’d drowse off again and be right back in cantaloupe [...]

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Deep Breath

Lupron is still treating me gently, for which I am appropriately grateful.  Still doesn’t feel like it’s working, though.  Which makes me a bit nervous.  I’m so ready to be getting ON with this cycle.  Long cycles suck – I’d never realized how good I had it with short cycles, before.  This is the pits. [...]

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